A new project

         Publishing writing about my work as a practitioner of yoga and healing arts has been gestating in my creative well for some time.  I've been an avid journaler most of my life and over the years have come across my past snippets about this work.  Each time I find those writings I think how this would not only be a healthy practice for myself but a wonderful way to share with others what this work and world of Healing Arts is to me.
         As I have been further developing my career as a yoga teacher and within my clinical massage practice, I continually come up against the questions "How do I look?  And how should I look?"  I am a wildly imperfect person with an innate gift in the art of healing.  I question my influence if ever any at all as a role model in wellness.  I wonder if there is space for me to be myself.  I wonder if there is space for all my doubts and questions.  I wonder if there is space for my eclectic fashion, for punk rock, and for my relationship with substances which is ever in flux.
         I question if I should simply build an avatar to represent me as a "Healer."  My avatar has skin that always glows, sparkly clear eyes and no drama ever.  She is effortlessly feminine, healthy, stylish and sober.  Never a pain in her body or wine in her glass.  She moderates her sugar intake, her income is stable, she has great-credit and makes lifestyle videos for social media that encourage us to want to be her.  My avatar is the modern face of the wellness industry but a lie about my process and experience within it.  My avatar would force integral parts of my story into the shadows.  I want to believe that sort of suppression of self will create alienation within me and from people around me.  Are we not all wildly imperfect?
         So, I am starting this blog with this philosophy in mind- to discuss healing and wellness I need to be willing to discuss a broader image of what that entails.  My story is one of the wounded Healer.  A Chiron’s tale.  Somedays I am in the sun and clouds and other's I am in the trenches.  My story holds my chronic pain, trauma, struggle and all the resilience that has led me through the dark corridors into the encompassing glow of ease and contentment (and then back again).  Through my spiritual journey I have found depths of empathy, compassion and capacity to work one-on-one with clients facing their own dark and light corridors.
         Today marks the start of this new endeavor, publishing writing as a part of my Healing Arts practice.  Thank you for reading.  Please feel open to commenting or reaching out via e-mail with any reflections on this work.  I look forward to sharing more.
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-Victoria Krushenick